Would the real Son of Man please stand up?

Ok .... I realise that I am re learning how to deal with life right now and trying to find my self spiritually speaking but it's not the first time down this road.... keeping that in mind I have tried to make this journey a bit different from what I percieve the typical walk to be ....Instead of running out and trying to convert all my friends with trick questions like "have you heard the good news?" or throwing out my secular cds in favor of only christian music....I call it the white wash.... Purity in everything right now! Instead I am taking time to read not only my bible almost everyday....I am reading material that exposes me to who jesus really was....Im trying to study him as a man...other than being the saviour of life and the ultimate champion fo rall that is good....he was also a man....100% devine and 100% man at the same time....what im interested in right now is learning about the man.....who he was ....how he carried himself....what made him happy...what pissed him off....how he showed his emotion....how he lead...how he chose his friends....

I look at pictures of jesus and think wow ....what a humble looking guy..... Honestly thats not the imression I want...nor is it the one I get when I start looking around and breaking the surface.... I have been listening to a LOT of pastors recently and paying particular attention to the things they say about Jesus and paying even closer attention to the way they tell men of thier congregation to act....often times men are being led to act a bit softer than the way Jesus would have in similar situations...atleast in my opinion. Its interesting and its honestly helpful. One of the things I heard a lot the last time I tried to give my life to the lord was that I seemed like a different person...and in some cases I was told that I seemed softer....at that time I truly believed that I had to be a softer version of who I was in order to be considdered a christian....I realise now that I was wrong. Recently I have found that it is ok to be the everyday guy that I am and that I am no less of a christian man because I hold onto my masculinity. In fact it helps me to relate to my friends and those around me who have yet to decide to give thier life to GOD...I do not want to lose the ability to connect with those people...it is vital....Jsus came here for those who were lost....and if I give up my ability to connect with those people then I have abandoned the very mission that jesus himself said he ws here for.

I encourage all of you to pick up a new book that speaks about something you think you already know and try to learn about it in a new way...the results can be life changing.
Hope this helps someone :-)